i need to find some inspiration to get me started.

i need to find some inspiration to get me started.
Monday, Jun. 20, 2005, 8:33 p.m.

hmm, i need to find a way to focus on my work for more than the pathetic 4hrs im spending on my wk.

bad bad.

how did i mug for 12hrs/day last time ahhh? i have no idea. :/

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10:26
urgh, im freaked out once again. very freaked out. urgh. gawdddd. freaked out! good thing he know when to back off. but im still freaked out. gawdd, how am i going to face him nxt time? gawdddd.